Second chance, for a second impression.

its a wonderful thing called google.

Idk, ever since she told me bout the rumors that she spread once again, its been on my mind. Yes, i may have said that it was over, i dont care bout it anymore. But how can anyone bury so much hate in their heart for 3 years. I was a bitch and childish in sec 3, or was it sec 2. Who wasnt. Then again, no one that age would do smth like i did. Who doesnt have a past? But each time i try and move on and to forget it, i always receive something that will pull me back.

Then to ’sks’, how can you love someone so much, when that same someone hurt you before. I remember you posting about it online, and at that time i felt like finally someone understands. We never really knew each other, then why are your perceptions about me so tinted. Will you be going around asking, ‘do you know cheryl? Do you know she did this and this. What a Ho, right?’ Arent you bored of telling the same story again and again for 3 years? Ive gotten tired of hearing it.

Then to you, is our story a sob story you tell everyone, then saying how much of a bitch or Ho i am Making everyone who dont know me hate me. Im just thankful that we dont care the same circle of friends. We may have had a smiliar circle, but we dont now. We dont even acknowledge our existence when we see each other. You either hate me too much, or didnt notice me, and i dont wanna be reminded if it. You may tell everyone you know how much you hate me, but im glad most wont know me, except for my name. Im not in that social circle, and i dont think i wanna be in it. What, let ppl judge me from a one sided story? I dont think so. If i could turn back time, id rather not go to that match. Id rather stay home and pack my stuff for my trip. But its over and nth can change it. Im not gonna be childish like last time, tryin t make you jealous or anything. It was really a stupid thing to do, thinking back. I just hope this ends with this post.

But thanks to my dear friends that believed or didnt judge me from that incident. It was the same friend that stood by me, the same one that i pushed away, and the same one that updated me with the newest rumors. Thanks friend. I may have neglected you a lot, or maybe didnt make you feel like you are my friend, you are girl! and i love you for all the help.

is the past, the past?

Ive been thinking, it was 3 years ago when it happened. 2 years ago, it was haunting me. Now you still cant let me go.

I was only secondary 3, we all make mistakes. We’ve all graduated from high school, in poly now. Can you please let go of the mistakes i made 3 years ago? What ever happened, just clean the slate.

We do not share the same group of friends, we dont even share the same interests now. So, just let it go. This secret, im not ready to share. And its this secrets that haunts me. If it means anything now, im sorry for that ugly ending.

second chance maybe?

“Instead of holding you, i was holding out.
I tried to laugh it off, but i made things worse,
You were the first to give, i was the first to ask
Now im in second place, to get a second chance. “

basic theory later. Oh wells, i better pass!

sick):

being sick sucks. I only wanted a sore throat, why give me the fever and bone ache? Damn suffering. Doctors prescribe medicine to be taken every 8 hours. My fever takes 1 hour to subside after medication, and 4 hours to return again. That leaves 3 hours of suffering. I took ibuprofen at 2. my fever went down at 3. Now my fever is back up. Im rotting at home, too weak to really move. Maybe dad wont allow me to attend camp next fri. Gosh no.

Meet up with guitar juniors at aloha chalet. I miss the bunch lots. Especially Charlene, GIRLFRIEND! =D
Had plenty of fun just talking bout random stuff and all the nonsense, makes me miss my secondary school days. They went underage drinking, hahaha, IM LEGAL! Next guitar outing or chalet soon! It’ll be great.

Gossipgirl

I LOVE CHUCK-BLAIR MOMENTS!!!
do your projects! now!

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butterflies?

I got the butterflies when I saw you today. I may curse and swear if I saw you from afar,-what if I looked more retarded than usual? what if..-but really it made my day.

Aaron say I got no asset-physically. I have okay, dont look down on me! HUMPH! But thanks Aaron for shopping with me! =D

Friday,meet up with lovesssss to dinner and shop. I miss them! =D

conscience

Heartmelts.

School today at 8 am. Im tired!

So I did something very ‘CherylSou’  yesterday. I accidently washed my hair with the body wash. And my hair sort of like ‘glue-ed’ to each other after that. It became very dry! I asked my cousin and he said try treatment, if it doesnt work, I may have to shave ‘botak’!! OMG! Second time this year. The first time was in batam, and I forgot my shampoo and used the hotel one instead. I totally freaked out my hair was ‘cemented’ together. Finally when the hair grew out, and most of the affected areas cut, I had to wash my hair with the body wash again. Die die die! I dont really understand what I typed also, but there is nth that can explain the whole process.

I finally got my pay in. Full amount, so I am going to get my essentials. First, hair products, clothes and maybe my new handphone or iPod.

After a while, I realized that there is nth meaningful going on in my life. What I think of everyday is, what t wear, what t eat when dad calls, what show is new. Really nothing that could mean anything t the world except contribute  the carbon emission. Then yesterday I heard bout the dog being skinned alive for its fur. My mom told me that it was in the papers yesterday and there is a video online bout it. I totally love animals, so dont get me wrong for what I am about t say.

I dont haven an opinion bout fur as clothes or as an accessory to match. But skinning an animal alive for its fur, that is way too much. If you were to kill an animal for its fur, please use what humanity that is left in your to kill that poor animal first. Killing it in my opinion is cruel enough, let it just suffer the pain once. Why skin the animal, pulling the fur of him, and leave him there to just die? What if i were to skin you, and leave you there to die a slow and painful death. It is pain to even have a small open wound, or maybe just a first degree burn. Did you even feel about that animal, the pain worse than an open wound or burn combined, plus pain from the whole body. Or did you feel that it would lighten your guilt from skinning if you let the animal live? Where is your common sense? You should rot in hell. Same goes for turtles. Just kill it first, dont just separate him and his shell just to cook some soup or herbal jelly.

When I say just kill it, I dont mean I am for animal fur. But be a little more humane whilst doing it would make the world a tad better.

next stop happiness

NEXT STOP HAPPINESS rocks!

I am hooked on to that taiwan drama. WHOO!

I finally got my pay. Coolio. Shopping!!!!!!!!

School was alright, quite boring thou. Well, continue with my show!

IMU!