why

5 stages. Im no longer at denial.

Its not suppose to be this way.

tur. I hate.

Marketing projects officially ends today. Boy am i Glad. Two down, two more to go. Macro and Eff writing.Chionging macro now. Have to do my slides and organise the report. Seriously, I am getting lazy. And sometime I wish people would just do rather than use their mouth to talk. Just a passing comment in general. I kinda dislike project period. Class politics will start popping out. But its all part of school luh

This year passed damn quickly. Its been more than a year since i knew my best buds in school. Aaron, Sam and Wee! Let me reminisce a little luh. I knew no one during the first day of DPA. Then i got to know yijun and Aaron on the second day. Wee was the daoster on the first day of Dpa when we met at the busstop and we both went hiding(behind the pillars). Then I only remember going to the airforce roadshow with sam. Met wee after the Air force roadshow. I can say that was the day i really got to know wee. If it was not for that day, I dont think I would be a tat close to wee. And this bond is strong. I love them very very much! Made my life in poly a lot more easier.

So with that group of friend, there were also plenty that made poly more interesting. Like love. Whoo!! Just like what i call her. She is love. HAHAH!

The rut that I climbed out of a few days ago, i fell back in. And it would be a year of wishful thinking soon.

great!

Chionging taiwan drama like siao now. Like making up for the years of not watching drama.

Just chionged my marketing finish just now. one load off my back. Left with macro. CHIONG MACRO! actually, I’ve only effectively used like 5 hours doing my project in total. But it took me weeks to complete. why? because everytime im halfway thru, i watch alll the drama, and one drama leads to another, BAM, not doing project.

So i AM NOT going to chionng drama until my projects and sems are over. my aim, GPA of 3.4 to make up for my 2.9 for last sem.

When you let go of everything that is left bottled up in your heart for so long, you feel great. I feel great!

life have been pretty mundane. Its school, home, school, home, school.

Just that i caught christmas carol just now. Quite boring initially, then when past, present and yet to come appeared it was a little more interesting.  Christmas carol is so not kids friendly. They love to shock people, especially during yet to come. Word of advise, do not bring your little siblings along!

Gossip girl finally came out yesterday. 3 cheers to that yo! It took forever for the newest episode to be updated, the wait is killing me! heh. I love Greg HOUSE.

OHOH! I h8 long bus ride, those that know me well should know that fact too! But im taking an 8 hours long bus ride to catch LUMFONG in genting!!! Gosh, is he not by far the cutest guy ever! FRONT ROW SEATS TOO! Im eggcited!

But im very excited for something else too! I have no idea why. Then i think he is too tired t hear my whine and he got his own problems too, so i never confide in him anymore! Im so confuse! You should know that i was so over it what, idk why suddenly like that again! Its suppose to be irritating, but then im excited!

PEACE!

@spirit!

Second chance, for a second impression.

its a wonderful thing called google.

Idk, ever since she told me bout the rumors that she spread once again, its been on my mind. Yes, i may have said that it was over, i dont care bout it anymore. But how can anyone bury so much hate in their heart for 3 years. I was a bitch and childish in sec 3, or was it sec 2. Who wasnt. Then again, no one that age would do smth like i did. Who doesnt have a past? But each time i try and move on and to forget it, i always receive something that will pull me back.

Then to ’sks’, how can you love someone so much, when that same someone hurt you before. I remember you posting about it online, and at that time i felt like finally someone understands. We never really knew each other, then why are your perceptions about me so tinted. Will you be going around asking, ‘do you know cheryl? Do you know she did this and this. What a Ho, right?’ Arent you bored of telling the same story again and again for 3 years? Ive gotten tired of hearing it.

Then to you, is our story a sob story you tell everyone, then saying how much of a bitch or Ho i am Making everyone who dont know me hate me. Im just thankful that we dont care the same circle of friends. We may have had a smiliar circle, but we dont now. We dont even acknowledge our existence when we see each other. You either hate me too much, or didnt notice me, and i dont wanna be reminded if it. You may tell everyone you know how much you hate me, but im glad most wont know me, except for my name. Im not in that social circle, and i dont think i wanna be in it. What, let ppl judge me from a one sided story? I dont think so. If i could turn back time, id rather not go to that match. Id rather stay home and pack my stuff for my trip. But its over and nth can change it. Im not gonna be childish like last time, tryin t make you jealous or anything. It was really a stupid thing to do, thinking back. I just hope this ends with this post.

But thanks to my dear friends that believed or didnt judge me from that incident. It was the same friend that stood by me, the same one that i pushed away, and the same one that updated me with the newest rumors. Thanks friend. I may have neglected you a lot, or maybe didnt make you feel like you are my friend, you are girl! and i love you for all the help.

is the past, the past?

Ive been thinking, it was 3 years ago when it happened. 2 years ago, it was haunting me. Now you still cant let me go.

I was only secondary 3, we all make mistakes. We’ve all graduated from high school, in poly now. Can you please let go of the mistakes i made 3 years ago? What ever happened, just clean the slate.

We do not share the same group of friends, we dont even share the same interests now. So, just let it go. This secret, im not ready to share. And its this secrets that haunts me. If it means anything now, im sorry for that ugly ending.

second chance maybe?

“Instead of holding you, i was holding out.
I tried to laugh it off, but i made things worse,
You were the first to give, i was the first to ask
Now im in second place, to get a second chance. “

basic theory later. Oh wells, i better pass!

sick):

being sick sucks. I only wanted a sore throat, why give me the fever and bone ache? Damn suffering. Doctors prescribe medicine to be taken every 8 hours. My fever takes 1 hour to subside after medication, and 4 hours to return again. That leaves 3 hours of suffering. I took ibuprofen at 2. my fever went down at 3. Now my fever is back up. Im rotting at home, too weak to really move. Maybe dad wont allow me to attend camp next fri. Gosh no.

Meet up with guitar juniors at aloha chalet. I miss the bunch lots. Especially Charlene, GIRLFRIEND! =D
Had plenty of fun just talking bout random stuff and all the nonsense, makes me miss my secondary school days. They went underage drinking, hahaha, IM LEGAL! Next guitar outing or chalet soon! It’ll be great.